It is possible to love many people at the same time.
It is possible to cheat while in love with another.
Cheating dont imply hate from the cheater as you though. Regrets and shame can be feeled by the cheater.

for the discust of another person exchanging fluid with her.
smoking from the same joint/pipe have same effect as a kiss, even french kiss for wet joint.
She kiss with tongue or suck a dick without condom, the mouth will be eventually clean, nothing stick to the gum more than peanut butter, and it is assimilated anyway.
finally, your have 20 dick brother with her and 20 with your ex.
You are poluted by breathing the same air of many people, how you explain flu and diarhea. You hygiene is less than perfect.

It does not necessary imply a lack of desire from your partner if it cheat.
Sometime it is just because this person in particular, or a kink.
If its a lack of desire, it can be fixed, and you should had long before.
It happen by selfishness. You are selfish anyway. Maybe you dont sleep because you are affraid of the pain you cause. But she just dont have any memory of being rudely threached.

About emotional infidelity
these thing happen. sometime people are trapped into an emotional maze like i am.

There is no reason to be jaelous.
If she is going to cheat, nothing will prevent it.
If you are aware that she will cheat, making a scene about her lack of loyalty will only end up her have a negative though about you.
But it is completely legitim to express your concern.
if she cheat because she want to leave you, there is no reason to try to recover. just say bye and move on.

If she lie to you, it is because she fear your reaction.
And liying is a great indicator on the level of trust she give you. You cant be honest to those you dont trust.

This old adage, once cheater, always cheater is inacurate.
she cheated on you twice 1997 and 2003, but dont want to cheat you again, two limerence that did get physical in 12 years is something.
you can have dumped her and then returned with her, it didnt make a difference. She was ashame of it.
And now you two are so symbiotic with sex that nobody will ever satisfy her as you do.

even though she cheated, she is now mind and body about you. You win agains them.
And if she cheat again, it does nt mean that this man humiliated you, he didnt even think about it.
And if he did it to make you lose then he is just a psychopath that your chick fell on.
it is more likely that he desire her. but he will end up being alone. And you will have the girl he dream.
If she cheat again, it is not about you, its about her and her secret lover. and if she love, nothing can be done.
If she cheat about you, congratulation, you marriage is already over, she already made her choice.

The fact that you want to make love to all girl you personnaly know change nothing to your desire and commitment with your wife.
Now that it is not the end of the world that she cheat, you dont have anymore the fence that prevented you get not even close
you are now elligible to cheat. and sometime you will have a taste of it and you will make a choice.
It is not anymore about love, it is about sex.
you are ready ?


@2016-08-06
how cheating destroy people

#1 public intimacy unvealed


#2 always feel on your guard 
partner betrayed you, life changing descision that didnt included you. you trusted on trust and got betrayed

#3 you feel not enough and set yourself unreasonable ideal

#4 you become the odd person out of your own relation
they share secret you dont. and youl always be excluded on this.

#5 all you though about the past is challenged
well you have new parameter that redifine your view on all memory

#6 got denyed your sexual agency
fucked someone else then fuck you. maybe you didnt want to be blood brother with the other. risk of std.

it cause loss of self esteem and it change how ou see the world.