about vengeance. instinct to create justice among social group
does not make happyer but prevent future offense by fear.
its basicly teaching not to do that again.
but many time vengeance is exagerated and only serve to hurt.

myelle is an overeacting avenger.
i had tjat friend emma. she was at my eye one of the cutest girl i saw. 
wasnt in love. never masturbated to her. but really liked her.
but i left with myelle. and started a new life.
myelle was so jealous that she fucked her ex while pregnant.
and now she is just a dumb bitch because she did way worst than anything i did.

myelle flirted with a young man. dumped me symbolicly
because i stayed too late a school with friend.
she is definitely an affective addict.
her vengeance dont make her feel better because she broke more than she fix.
she even broke un broken thing
iwas just left cheated and never knew why.

and then when someone profoundly hurt me .
i take something back i gave them. emotionally
alex i ened helping him because he was abusing.
for myelle i cuted bridge for bernie
i took back my trust as whole for her because of the flirt.
i took back my body ownership because of her ex.
i took back my liberty to love because she took it twice.

elyse was not a vengeance. it was a revelation.
i am still glad to have myele in my life. instead of walking away i just take back what she didnt cared.

even now she care . i dont give her back.
i beleave her when she promise me she wont do it again, but i dont want her to think i beleave her. because i beleave it many time while it was a lie.

When she talk about revenge, And about me not doing it. Its because she is vengefull. She judge me by her own standar.
This is why she fear my vengeance. and see everything i do for myself as vengeance. 
Her anger that led to cheat is exagerated agains the offend i did.
In fact their is no reason for me to fogive an infidelity. Except fear of loosing my familly.
I only consider forgivness because i want to, not that i fear something will retaliate. This is why i give my condition.