I havent seen her since july 1st
She vanished luckily.
I dont have any intrusive though anymore.
I now understand underlying cause of this limerence.
Myelle was not faithfull and was gaslighting me as jealous intolerent and the seal broke.
This is what happened. I couldnt take it anymore, my love wall crumbled, my love island shatered.
And Myelle apologised for the first time, because she felt a glimpse of what she made me endure.
She confessed infidelity she lied and made me marry her and accept her lover as a best friend.
They dated, he was at our wedding and I had to work up that jealousy.
Now she know that it is an unacceptable abuse.
She know that I consider it a non respect.
She know the wedding dont have any value anymore.
I asked open relationship.
And I had a flirt.
And ... I think that ive been really patient.
I hardly think about LO at all.
I focused on real people.
I considered divorce. But I stayed, open relation is the only way for me to come back without taste of faillure.
It feel weak to let another chance to a cheater.
I think the the episode of LO is done, 
I now consider myself as a CLOG. kind of desillusioned romantic lover.
I am open to love from everyone who please me.
My wife still please me, but i dont trust. And i am not proud of US. familly yes, house yes, her yes, but not US.
I will archive that folder. She doesnt exist anymore.