I dont consider myself jalous. It is pejorative and give credit to cheater while i am cuck, and i couldnt handle that. I dont want to fuck in the juice of other, i want love. my itimity is precious and i share only with trustable people. 

one day a friend of mine tried to hint me of my cheating girlfriend. not that she already did but the she was actually flirting with a dude i know. While i prefer not to panic, i just began being more receptive to her telling myself, maybe a routine installed itself and i became boring. Then i noticed that while i was totally with her, she seam absent minded, like if her body was here and her mind was else where. I became "inquiet" and with shame i logged her communication then i sawed it, there were a secret sexual tension between her and a so called friend. I continued to torture myself watching the situation evolve until that day. 

They planednto date secretly and crash on our place while i on duty else where. i took my days off and waited them at home, tracking her movement, yes i am ashame to have hacked her phone. Once they arrived, i was hidden in the closet and made myself warrant of the event. It was painfull to see her kiss him like kissed me once. 

why should i be humiliated like that. i loved her, i was attentive, strong, confident, listener and she treat me like that. if only she d had dumped me, i would not feel sick like that of seeing you starting to suck his dick while you kissed me good day once i left this morning. and this fucker have win, he got more intimate with her than i am, while she lie to me, you get all advantage. how could i walk out of here with pride. This winner enjoy my humiliation eyes wides shut, and she score two guy in a short lapse of time. And I swallowed my pride, and turn psychopath for a brief moment, I will win.

I sneaked to the bed, she was naked and kind of wet, still sucking his bigger dick than mine. He was still enjoying and never noticed my presence. Behind her, pant off I grabed her head and pushed so shes on the verse of choking, then i grabed her waist with my two hands. then I start fucking her from behind while making sure she dont stop sucking his dick. "What the..." he said, "Let give all we got" I responded. Confuse of the turning of the event, i am not making a scene but offer her a threesome. I notice that it was turning him off a little but while choking, she was begining feeling a very spasmic orgasm. Her contraction when I get her there always triggerd mine. So i filled with huge cum load, he was off. Off course she can take more but was little discusted of her with my juice dripping. i left the room to wash a little then i left the house still foot naked, running far away. I am starting in a new commune, i will make sure she ll never see me again. I left her with the souvenir of the guy who turn her guiltyness into threesome, And I Was The One Who Dumped Her. He will remember me as the dude who completely destroyed his new relation. In all case I winned. I will cry in a park until tomorow noon. and i begin a new life.

I planned to crash at the friend who hinted me. And keep quiet while I find a new commune far enough to not cross her on street. the dude left the room while she enjoy extasis she feel after a good sex. he simply left the house, blocked her phone number. feeling dirty, dirty because he is not into that bi curious threesome with two guy. and also feel that hes being tricked by unscrupulous couple with weird fetish. he felt raped. she for instance asleep, completely wasted, she woke up the morning withbtaste of fuck and he ass was sticky. while showering, she will think of me, How much good lover i am, how much i always find a way to surprise her, she question her self for how long he knew, did he setted this all up ? following days she waited for me to return and talk up. no response from her conquest either. And the hearth full of love for me, for what i did to her, how i got her out of this sexual tension without her loosing me. she paranoiied, and after a week he hearth broke, she understood she was alone.

we off course met later, she was invited to a new years party a common friend organised. She was shy, and melting red. I stayed away from her. she had no gust to talk to me. shame and sadnesa, i started to feel bad for what i did to her. she is free for month since meband she look completely destroyed. but still if i didnt i would be the pathetic one who is destroyed and alone, whatching her with the hypothetic new boyfriend she was working on. love can easily turn into hate.

i love her. 

and i become alcoolic