I am thousand mile of being a cuck fetishist. I dont sound sexy to me. When cheated I feel humiliated. I imagine her having sex with another man, I want to throw up.
This is clearly a fear that can destroy me. If I want to be stronger emotionally. I must be able to overcome this.

Feeling:
humilation . Yes he got your chicks. First you dont own human being. See as He dont get her, She Got Him !
discust . She had fucked many negga before you. And are not discusted imagining her with a girl. Double standar.
treason . You have all right to feel that way because she lie, You have lied to her many time too.