Sex rarely been bad with her. maybe in the first years because she started destroying me and have cheated. i was completely discusted.
i remember not having beleaved her but gave her the chance to confess and compensate me. never did, still standed to her lie until at sherb i ask her to not include him in our life. she threaten me to throw me away and reiterated the lie. i chosed to beleave her.
but until then i was even turned on by that lyer. but after sex slowly took back its place, especially while sleeping.
And since she emotionally cheated, sex became amazing. For me everythiong where over. but sleeping with my future ex wasnt a problem, could even make something good.
my sexual performance increased by many fold, maybe yoga, cardio, canabis, end of anxiety, butg i also think that i am not impressed anymore by her.
well that sum what happened.


@2016-11-07
lately she complained that she miss the old way we made love back then. when i was minute man , i had many trick to handle the urge to cum while still stimulating her.
but now i can hold it for hour. and i take great pleasure riding her like a hurricane. but she miss the tender mode that i currently lack.

last time (friday) she told me to stop in a severe way like if i wasnt respecting her. no warning shot. i was looking at the pleasure she had and then become a bitch face then yield at me. i just retired and lied aside looking at the celling trying to understand what happened. then she complained. and i responde, sorry, i didnt deserved to be treated like this. she cried. no sex since. principaly because we were to tired, though make out happened a lot.

since i challenged myself to have her night and morning, she kind off cuted the sex altogether with health issue as argument. couldnt protest against it, seam legit.
its been three week we havent had it more than once in 4 days and limited in time. because on my tongue ring (not all her issue).
she say that it exhaust her. i still think that it may lead her to have a deal with another girl to satisfy me. i dont expect it, but i think that thinking about it may help her accept that i'll happen anyway.
while unacceptable for a respectable lover to expect this from my wife. i am not a respected lover. anyway.
i have that phantasy that turn me one while doing it. is that i pullout her vagina then fuck her face a little, cum in her throw, then kiss her and fuck her again.
seam completly disrespectfull, buti am not forcing her to, its just surprise. and seeing her being turned on by the thin line between kink and abuse make me even more hot.
I know that she want a tender love making were we are slowly making it with lot of kiss and gentle stroke. I always liked this too, i dont know why it dont turn me on now.
it is maybe the vulnerability that i had that i dont anmore.

let see tonight if i can get something good with myelle

@2016-11-08
i refrain to ride her like an hurricane, i gave her the seet sex.
a full sucking cuni then penetration, multiple orgasm.
in the end i washed and she sucked my dick until i cum in her mouth. she was proud.
the sex was a simple levrette with her on the bottom, she was tired again.

@2016-11-09
im tired, had it two times, no cuni, countless orgasms from her, none from me.
she blew me, rided me, then blew me again then i got over her. then we fell asleep with my dong in her crack.
woke up doing levrette with her and had one or two climax.
this morning i had to masturbate.
it was presidential election in the us. we watched saucage party and then i was getting a blow job while Trump was elected.

@2016-11-21
last time we had sex was maybe 10 days. it was not really satisfying.
I first been to eiger to fuck her, and it turned her off.
i didnt want oral.
anyway she ask me to stop and were done.
nothing since
i asked her yesterday because we had spa
it was magical with snow, we kissed a lot with the tongue.
but the night she said i want to sleep.
(i heard her telling marie i asked for sex, dont know what to think of that)
i am tired.
I want good sex and it was the only thing left enjoyable from her and now nothing,

2016-11-28
she get better at blowjob.
but now say stop and i am left to tale care of myself.
i have now to masturbate twice a day even if i have sex.
a little boring.

@2016-12-08
haven had great sex since. had good sex but hardly finished or satisfied. 
though she is a good cock sucker.
but we rarely beat an hour straight and i masturbate the morning.
had almost two week without because of a break.
it was good since. but not amazing
i am not mad. not decieved.
i masturbate three time a day.
i draw hard sex comic.

2016-12-13
Amazing sex since three days.
I didnt have to masturbate we do it three times a day.
She just announced that she want to do it with another girl.

@2016-12-20
the other night we had sex while i was narating an incestuous stpry
she didnt liked the incest part. but said i was amazing a narating sex.
it was really good.
whileshoveling the snow, she rolled a joint and smoked it like a cigarette 
she showed a sexy stante of winter smoking that i still remember.
starting to fall in love again.

@2017-01-07
had incredible sex late nite 
wounded my penis . not bad. scar
in the 420 room on a chair.
we ended anal. and this itroughtfor a long time. 
she moaned really load and squirted two time on the floor.
i didnt come. maybe medoc. hardly reach it while masturbatibg.
we also talked about swi ging. threesome. paid service and sex tourism.