With her ex.
  she had a time were she were like a prostitute.
  she had lot of sex with lot of men.
  when i started i wanted sex. but soon we had fluid bonding. it was kinky for me, it was something else for her.
  she asked for a real relationship, i said no. she asked again, i said, not with a woman who have sex with other people.
  she shut them out. we started together, got pregnant
  then she gone one last time . and she settled with me.
  that one last was not condoned, she was supposed to just love me.
  It was for her only recreational sex, for me it is cheating
  She lied to me and refused my feeling for 13 years, only the day I said, i love someone else she apologized.
  I felt like ive been stealed my whole life because i wouldnt accept to build a family with someone who cheated.
  I didnt trusted her. I have four kid, and she is the perfect mother, she swear she didnt cheat for the rest of the time.
  She also keep this man in our life . It was completely hypocrite, they shared that secret on my behalf. how could he respect me.
  I chosen to forgive, but not forget, it will always be painfull.
  I understand now that the other man never exchanged fluid with her. And the fact we did early was because i winned her poly hearth.
  still with that romantic statement, she still cheated, and if she had the right to have recreational sex on my behalf , with my money. bearing my child.
  I can have recreational sex too. I just follow her guide line. Its not vengeance, i would have been more mean. I just want back my sexuality.

With justin:
  she was tired of motherhood.
  He brought her into adventure.
  He touched her. He seduced her. They flirted. She lied to me.  and she benched me.
  She as always blamed me for it. She saw him in secret.
  Its a thing she would never tolerate from me.
  she now apologise to me. She apologised the day i said. i love someone else.