@2017-02-27
first day as single
she invited me for a cofee and joint

@2017-02-28
last day of alcohol
yesterday she told me she will flirt with elyse in a bar. it made me unconfortable
i told her i will joint if im jalous. she ask if something happen do i really want to know
out of stress is said i dont know, i am not sure i dont want to know.
later in the knight i told her that i do want to know, i dont want to return without knowing.
she just told me that she will respect me and want the same from me.

in reality if i stray and she stray, i would be maybe ok
if i stray and she didnt , i want her to be able to refuse me.
if i dont and she did, i dont come back
if we both dont stray, it would be a no doubt to come back

if she have sex with another while she say no to me, i wont come back.
i dont want this.

she told me i am the only one in her head and hearth.